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| 11:03pm 11/04/2007 |
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Could've
Would've
Should've
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I'm a fool
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| 10:08pm 03/04/2007 |
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Things in life.... have been moving at least...
Karate finally started back up into actual training and not just demo team shit...
which is nice cause i'm really out of shape..
I started watching gargoyles again...
Yea... I know most of you probably think that i'm a kid for being so excited about this series...
but hell it's a quality animated series...and i haven't seen it in fucking years!
gods...i love my animation XD
My cars in the shop getting fixed from when that lady rear-ended me....
~And it's funny cause i know i'm a fool~
"Just close my eyes
Ignore the smoke,
Ignore the smoke and smile"
~Kyo |
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| 05:13pm 22/03/2007 |
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Never forget
It's all in your head
Just wait
the noise will stop
promise
just stop
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The tea is done
"one more time feeding your soul"
~Kyo |
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| bad luck anyone? plaese, feel free to take mine... |
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| 10:41pm 20/03/2007 |
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so lately i have been trying to not think about things...
which was really nice... for awhile.... i just kind of worked and moved and woke up everyday and i didn't worry about all the shit that's been bugging me lately... lack of sleep and continuous exercise when you run out of work to do always helps to clog a mind from thinking...
But all that non-thinking got me to do one really fucked up thing... and even though i know that you will never read this cause you don't even know it exists, i'm really sorry... you have no idea how much i regret that... and i can't help it... you were just there… just another person… I’m sorry cause I knew I was doing something wrong then… I’m just so fucking sorry…..
Wednesday was another nightmare altogether... I had car problems up the ass... starting with some idiots who almost hit me because they don't know how to yield... so i swerved out of the way and hit a curb... which gave me a fucking flat tire... and considering the fact that i didn't remember how to change a tire and Alena didn't either we went to ask for help from the Sears tire place (we were at the mall) they said that they didn't do that kind of thing and that we had to go to firestone... (which we were already soaked from running to the sears place.) So we went to firestone and they said that they couldn't do anything because the car wasn't on their property and we would have to get a tow truck to get their help... so we ran back through the rain to the car and called AAA... when AAA finally ot there the guy fixed the tire in less then 10 minutes.... and then the fucking car wouldn't start... My battery was dead from the hazard lights... but then the guy tried to jump start the car and that didn't work... so he tested the battery and found that it was bad... so i had to call AAA again to get another guy to come out who could fix my battery.... Fucking A....
then shit happened at work and Nick yelled at me... which in the end it turned out i had done nothing wrong... which still doesn't make things much better between me and my manager...
then today i burnt my hand.... At least it stopped burning for now...
Other then that i really have nothing else to rant about that i can think of anymore... I just want this school year to end so that i can get on with my life...
Oh and i've started on a really kick-ass character for my animation just recently... when i get more done on it i'll post up some pics... it's this mainly mechanical but still partially organic character... if all goes according to plan it's going to look bad ass...
Oh and if you don't know yet i got accepted into the Arts and Technology program @ UT Dallas... so i'll be going to dallas soon...
"I beat my machine, it's a part of me, it's inside of me
I'm stuck in this dream, it's changing me, I am becoming
the me that you know had some second thoughts
she's covered with scabs, she is broken and sore
the me that you know doesn't come around much
that part of me isn't here anymore"
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| 05:05pm 11/03/2007 |
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fuck....
it's been forever since i've been able to sit down at my comp...
thank god for spring break....
Recently i went to a competition in corpus christi. I was tested on Computer Network technology, and i qualified to go to New York! which is kick ass. So if i get enough money up i'll be going. god i can't wait... it's going to be so much fun.
Work has been hell especially since i got sick and have been trying to recover. I'm still coughing up a lung but i feel a lot better.
Peoples are coming back into houston and i can't wait to hang out with people. My brother met psyclon nine band members when he went to their concert. Which is awesome and would have been even more awesome if i could have gone with him. (i was supposed to but i got sick, and then there was work, etc... fuck me)
I've been practicing my belly dancing a lot and i finally got a kick ass corset belt.... it's so pretty. I'll post up some pics of it in a bit...
"look at that,
He wants me dead.
God damn this noise inside my head"
~Kyo |
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| 01:56am 10/02/2007 |
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In the end i woke up and found that it was all just a dream
It was such a good dream...
Why can't i sleep anymore?
"I didn't want to know
I just didn't want to know
Best to keep things in the shallow end
Cause I never quite learned how to swim
I just didn't want to know
Didn't want, didn't want,
Didn't want, didn't want
Close my eyes just to look at you
Taken by the seamless vision
I close my eyes,
Ignore the smoke,
Ignore the smoke
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Mistook their nods for an approval
Just ignore the smoke and smile"
~Kyo |
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| 05:01pm 08/02/2007 |
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YAY! I got my Dir en Grey ticket a couple days ago!
the show is going to be fucking awesome!
I can't wait!
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| 09:34pm 04/02/2007 |
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So on friday i went to a competition for my computer animation.
Me and my friend Jackie (who was my partner) got 3rd place.
Which is fucking awesome as hell.
But of course like the weird little competition that it is, only the 1st and 2nd places go to state. (why can't it be the first 3 like all the other competitions?)
oh well. It's still hell-a-fucking-awesome that we got 3rd.
Matt came home this weekend, which was amazing. He brought home the movie mirror mask for me to watch. I absolutely loved it. That movie is amazing. And if you haven't seen it yet, I highly suggest that you see it. I love Neil Gaiman.
ummm... yea... that's all i have to say...
now it's back to writing college essays... oh joy...
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| 07:27pm 01/02/2007 |
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Well..
the whole beat of things has finally arranged itself and i realize that i wont be home much at all anymore...
this whole home thing kind of flies past my head now...
it's more like a place that i go and sleep...
and that's kind of depressing
works been good...
i'm behind on my animation work (like always). But the work itself is going up in quality which is awesome... i just can't seem to get passed all the details...
...college shit is still far from being finished...
i know i'm not good enough. And i know you don't really ever see me. But please, just give me the chance...
"I saw a wishing well down by the stream,
I never understood what wishes mean
Just ask for nothing
You'll get what you get
I asked for something I'm not gonna get"
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| 12:59am 28/01/2007 |
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I miss people
I miss a lot of things
I'm in hell
I can't see in front of me anymore
I just can't think
Forget it
Just forget
Quietly
Please leave quietly
I don't need it to make an impression
There are too many of those already
Oh so many lost
So long ago
So far away
far out of reach
I can't believe
I can't believe your words
I'm wishing that i could
I feel so lost
Lost and alone
Where did everybody go?
Where did I go?
~Kyo
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| 11:40am 07/01/2007 |
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Forgetting is harder then it should be...
Sleeping doesn't seem to come in nice big chunks anymore
and brains that actually function?
well... let's just say that i doubt i have one of those anymore...
hopefully i can finnish all the things i have to do early today and just crash...
my head is going to explode if i don't
~Kyo |
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| 01:07am 30/12/2006 |
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YAY!
i've messed everything up at home again....
i'm not perfect
what can i say?
no one is...
i'm sorry i'm not who you want me to be...
i can't help who i am
Why don't you just forget your expectations and just except me?
it would make a lot of this pain go away
I got a 2nd job at pei wei...
between the 2 jobs i might be able to save up a decent amount of money...
but christmas burnt a huge whole in my pocket...
So far i like the job at pei wei...
it's nice and it keeps me busy...
mindless work that keeps my mind off of other things...
which is something that i need right now...
"Black winged angel come to me
Release my soul from this misery"
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| 07:35pm 08/12/2006 |
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This has been the week from hell!
I swear to god just when i think things can't get any worse something else goes wrong...
I need this break to get here faster... and by faster i mean now.
but i still have to take finals....
And if that bitch wont give me my exemption i will hurt her...
oh and by the way... never take a calculus test while taking benydryl... it makes you think that 2*4 is 6 (and no, it is not 6)
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| 04:50pm 15/11/2006 |
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And everything falls apart...
~Kyo |
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| 06:07pm 09/11/2006 |
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There are wasps in my house again.....
...i hate wasps...
~Kyo |
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| 03:55pm 03/11/2006 |
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You know what I just realized, that i just don't care anymore.
XD
Today's a good day for spinning in circles.
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| 04:53pm 02/11/2006 |
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I'm a FUCKING Idiot!
YAY!
~Kyo |
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| 01:32am 21/10/2006 |
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A long time ago you said you'd catch me if I fell...
So answer me this, hon
Why am I lying on the ground?
"Why does it come as a surprise,
To think that I was so naive.
Maybe it didn't mean that much,
But it meant everything to me."
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| 01:03am 30/09/2006 |
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Sometimes, I think about it, and it would just be way to easy...
accidental...
sometimes, I think it would be better if i just didn't think...
escape...
I've dug myself into another hole...
falling...
it's pathetic really...
Someone...
Save Me...
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| 10:38pm 24/09/2006 |
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Hopeless...
Even passions hurt, chasing after a piece of eternity
digging your own grave
In the choices that you make, attempting to save your soul(heart)
can't say it
can't say goodbye
You are the sky, You are the Dream
Use Me
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